I remember it like it was yesterday. May 23, 2012 was a warm and sunny day. I decided to take my dog, Prince, out for a run. We were outside for about 30 minutes. I came in, cooked some fish and then got in the shower. Shortly after my shower, I started to have shortness of breath.  Never before had this happened in my life. I was at home alone and called my mom and told her what was going on and told her I felt like I might need to go to the hospital. 

As soon as I said that things took a turn for the worst, my breathing became more difficult and it was hard for me to speak. I began to get dizzy and it felt like the world was moving in slow motion. It felt like my lungs were filled with fluid and my throat was so clogged up. I thought to myself, Lord what is going on with me? I don’t wanna die like this.

My mom said that she was calling the ambulance and my dad was on the way. My dad made it to my house before the ambulance did. He tried to calm me down but I was panicking. I remember saying “Jesus help me.” The ambulance got there and gave me some meds and oxygen and took me to hospital. After running all of these tests on me, they concluded that it was an asthma attack. An asthma attack? No, it can’t be, I have never had a history of asthma. I was thinking, how can an adult develop asthma so suddenly?

The months ahead would be very difficult for me. Not only could I not breathe normally but I had a constant feeling of fluid in my chest going up to my throat. At night it would be so bad that I would wake up and feel as though I’m drowning. I saw an allergy doctor who gave me an allergy test and concluded that I was allergic to pollen, pet dander, watermelon, onion and yeast. He thought that me moving back to Houston along with stress factors had contributed to me developing asthma. photo All I could think about was my Siberian husky, Prince. How could I be allergic to him? At that time, I had taken care of him for 4 years. He said that I would need to rethink keeping him or try allergy shots. I told him that I could never give him up. That’s like my child and I would never give my child up. So not only was I dealing with allergies, but I was dealing with this fluid in my body that wouldn’t go away that was causing me to breathe uncomfortably 24/7. I wouldn’t wish that feeling on my worst enemy.I had seen several doctors, one was supposed to be one of the best pulmonary specialists in Houston who prescribed a medication to me that he knew would clear this fluid, but it didn’t work. He didn’t know what else to do for me. Everything was just going bad. I wouldn’t eat because I couldn’t breathe and when I did eat it was very little. I lost 50 pounds over the course of 3 months. I couldn’t be around my dog without a mask and an air purifier. I couldn’t walk outside without a mask because the pollen was so bad. I hated wearing those masks and people thinking that it’s something wrong with me. Sometimes I would leave them off, but I would pay for it later. I had to take a leave of absence from my job for about a month because it was a constant struggle to breathe. I had went months without being able to sleep more than a couple of hours without waking up feeling as though I’m drowning and choking, trying to catch my breath.

I remember asking the Lord, why have you left me? I try to live right and be a good person, but I see other people that I know ain’t living right and they are doing well.  Why am I suffering like this? Don’t you hear me when I call out to you?

During this time my mom was very inspirational to me. She would always give me healing scriptures and encourage me to believe God for my healing. My anger turned into faith that God would heal me. I would talk to the devil and tell him that no weapon formed against me shall prosper and that God is going to bring me out of this in his timing. The more I began to read scriptures every day and become closer to God, I began to start to feel better. A lot better. The doctors couldn’t do it, but God!

Today I can enjoy spending time outside, can be around Prince without a mask and I can get a full night of rest without gasping for air. Sometimes we don’t realize that our struggles can turn into our blessings. Not only did I become closer with God and develop a stronger faith in God, I lost 50 pounds, which I never would’ve been able to do on my own. If you are going through something, put your trust in God, he will never leave you. He hears you crying. He may not come when you want him, but he’s always on time.